On Options, Indecision, Confusion and Migraines

Last night it was suggested to me that because of the issues I've been having with my apartment and rental company that I might be able to get out of my lease and move elsewhere.  My first thought was then, "why would I move somewhere else in Portland for the next 7 months?  I should look into moving to VA."  This of course brought up the issue of school and money and everything else that would have to be considered for such an endeavor.  Of course last night was the night that the internet was down at work so I couldn't do any of the research that would help me make a decision.  For instance, was it even possible to get out of my lease?  Was there a school out there comparable to the one I am enrolled in here? 

In addition to these researchable questions there were also other considerations and pros and cons to be weighed.  On the Pro side we have the fact that it would solve several problems in one go.  I would have time to do research and find a place and equipment for the bakery while I was in school and it would eliminate not seeing certain people for 6 months. 

After being nearly sick about it all night and waking up with a migraine this afternoon I talked to my friend who pointed out that as great as it would be to be closer, the timing is really bad and this would all be very rushed which is what I've been trying to avoid.  I thought about this for a while, staring into space and wait for my head to stop feeling like it was going to explode and realized that when I made the decision to move to VA in the first place, when I decided on OCI, when I think about the future as it stands now and how I feel it will progress, it all felt right and it felt easy.  I was way too stressed about these new possibilities and maybe it had something to do with my migraine (or maybe my head is just broken). 

So in the end, after all that, nothing is changing.  I'm still a bit woozy from the whole thing but I think the right thing is to stay put for the time being.  So, really, I suppose this whole blog was kinda silly and pointless....but now you know what my day was like. ;-)